Thursday, April 30, 2009
Yeah !
Finally someone see me as one that can share her problems. Haha......
Very long never listen to voices from the heart , I want to hear more !
It always feel good when people are pouring their troubles to you , it makes u feel wanted . It feels that you are there for a reason . Good Feeling . Bagus ?
Finally she sees the other side of me ..... A more mature side of me ........
Finally someone see me as one that can share her problems. Haha......
Very long never listen to voices from the heart , I want to hear more !
It always feel good when people are pouring their troubles to you , it makes u feel wanted . It feels that you are there for a reason . Good Feeling . Bagus ?
Finally she sees the other side of me ..... A more mature side of me ........
4/30/2009 01:35:00 AM
Friday, April 24, 2009
I went for my IS today .
There is this common saying that people would only take 3 minutes to make the first impression of you . Naturally they make assumptions of your behaviour and your character .
First impression is very important , especially at work.
This is because from what you wear , how you look , the things you brought affects the first impression. Even when you sit on a chair with hunchback , they will think that you are sloppy person.
People , be careful and aware of your first impression to others .
There is this common saying that people would only take 3 minutes to make the first impression of you . Naturally they make assumptions of your behaviour and your character .
First impression is very important , especially at work.
This is because from what you wear , how you look , the things you brought affects the first impression. Even when you sit on a chair with hunchback , they will think that you are sloppy person.
People , be careful and aware of your first impression to others .
4/24/2009 12:09:00 AM
Thursday, April 23, 2009
在我的世界里 , 有三种人。
第一种，在了解之后，自己也不想去接触的人。
第二种，是和我谈得上的人，跟他们一起的时候，会很快乐，也不需要顾虑太多。
最后一种，是美丽的人。我最害怕的。我不敢正眼看他们。他们太耀眼了。
这应该是所谓的自卑吧。
第一种，在了解之后，自己也不想去接触的人。
第二种，是和我谈得上的人，跟他们一起的时候，会很快乐，也不需要顾虑太多。
最后一种，是美丽的人。我最害怕的。我不敢正眼看他们。他们太耀眼了。
这应该是所谓的自卑吧。
4/23/2009 12:04:00 AM
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Its like coming to 2am and im still stuck at the same problem .
I wanted to be a good student today so i went to read the slides.
I haven do tutorial YET !
I am super sleepy now . I want to sleep with my mouth open widely and snore !
Note to myself : I always have been impatient , but sorry to say that i hate to wait for like such a long period of time where i could have done better things.
I wanted to be a good student today so i went to read the slides.
I haven do tutorial YET !
I am super sleepy now . I want to sleep with my mouth open widely and snore !
Note to myself : I always have been impatient , but sorry to say that i hate to wait for like such a long period of time where i could have done better things.
4/22/2009 01:42:00 AM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Where were those happy times ?
I miss them ....... I miss the SCC in the past .
Actually i have too much to say to each of you . Perhaps in the next post .
You can say anything about me but i would say i love the SCC in the past .
The fun and happy times . The times when i feel happy inside and outside .
A place where i can play and have fun with anybody . A place where i can share anything to anybody also .
It is like a playground where friends would always welcome me.
But , it had changed too much in just a year .
Right after the announcement of MC , i felt happy for all of you .
When most of you had become MC , all of you are busy . I understand .
All of you bond through that period of time because you are working with each other . I understand .
All of you become best work mates and friends . I understand.
What i don't understand is , why we had become so distant after some of you become MC ?
Never mind . I thought to myself . I still have others right ?
Like PY , my best friend just came in .I did not say anything .
The year started out with people in different cliques . Slowly , it became a phenomenon and then it became normal. We were so distant from each other , even friends.
I started to feel that the sense of belonging is not as strong as before. Perhaps , i felt left out . I don't know exactly what i was feeling , but i know that i don't feel good .
As things started happening , i started to cry .
This kind of feeling lasted for one year .
I felt like a left out . I felt like im way too stupid , talent-less,too ugly ,too evil , un-loved . This felt miserable.
Just when the academic year ended and before we were preparing for concert , Ah ru had left for China . Then came the preparations , then the concert. It was a great time , i always liked the feeling of working together like a big family again . It was the happiest time for me during the year in SCC .
Just when i thought everything was over , they announced the P and VP which i thought was totally predictable . Then they announced the MC .
I dont know why , i felt super duper sad . From happy to extreme emo-ness. I don't know why .
I felt disappointed and betrayed ....
I guessed the cycle would repeat again for a year .....
The only thing i have learnt this year : Everyone changes .
Tell me when would the happy times come again and get me ?
When could i smile when i really mean it ? When could i feel the love again ?
When....
4/18/2009 12:58:00 AM
ARHHHHHHH
Jealousy .........
I hate jealousy .......
But it always creep out from nowhere and haunts me .....
I am always emotionally imbalance ...........
Jealousy .........
I hate jealousy .......
But it always creep out from nowhere and haunts me .....
I am always emotionally imbalance ...........
4/18/2009 12:40:00 AM
Friday, April 17, 2009
I am happy today !
I cut my hair
I am going to change my specs on Sunday
School is starting .....
Ya ........ So .........
I must face challenges from now on .
I cut my hair
I am going to change my specs on Sunday
School is starting .....
Ya ........ So .........
I must face challenges from now on .
4/17/2009 09:17:00 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
I woke up and i realise ..........
Everyone around me is getting a boyfriend or has got a boyfriend .
Even if they are not wanting a boyfriend , they have got someone who secretly admire them .
I sian diao , everytime i hear that .
The best thing is when i met up with my best friend outside school , she could still tell me ,
"Why you don have boyfriend ?"
" Looking at your rate , i think you can't get a boyfriend in poly . I think you will find a boyfriend in Uni ."
Even people ask her for her number during the chalet and she still could chat with him when he doesn't know much about him .
Amazing !
So........
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME ?
Is it because im not friendly enough ?
Im not pretty enough ?
My figure sucks ?
Im super fierce ?
or basically , Im not a good girlfriend material ?
This is irritating .
What if i dont even have a boyfriend in Uni ? In work ? After retirement ?
I decided to plan for my future .
Everyone around me is getting a boyfriend or has got a boyfriend .
Even if they are not wanting a boyfriend , they have got someone who secretly admire them .
I sian diao , everytime i hear that .
The best thing is when i met up with my best friend outside school , she could still tell me ,
"Why you don have boyfriend ?"
" Looking at your rate , i think you can't get a boyfriend in poly . I think you will find a boyfriend in Uni ."
Even people ask her for her number during the chalet and she still could chat with him when he doesn't know much about him .
Amazing !
So........
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME ?
Is it because im not friendly enough ?
Im not pretty enough ?
My figure sucks ?
Im super fierce ?
or basically , Im not a good girlfriend material ?
This is irritating .
What if i dont even have a boyfriend in Uni ? In work ? After retirement ?
I decided to plan for my future .
- Be a workaholic and be successful in career , and don depend on any man .
- Be a NUN
- lastly , live with hui hui in a spinster house when we reach 35 and we have no one to depend on . This is what we had promised . LOL
I am pathetic .......
I must study harder looking at the options i gave myself . LOL
4/16/2009 11:23:00 AM
I finally felt im not alone in this emo-ness .
People felt the same as me .......
I will try my best to make the place a happy one !
People felt the same as me .......
I will try my best to make the place a happy one !
4/16/2009 12:32:00 AM
Monday, April 13, 2009
New Blog Song
艺伎 by JS
The lyrics is beautiful . People should google it .
艺伎 by JS
The lyrics is beautiful . People should google it .
4/13/2009 04:15:00 PM
Sometimes is better for people not to know the real me .
It is pathetic.
It is pathetic.
4/13/2009 04:04:00 PM
Friday, April 10, 2009
我这个人其实还蛮迟钝。。。。
不不，应该是嘴贱之后才后悔。
我每次嘴巴动得比脑筋快， 常常说一些不该说的话。
就拿最近的争吵来做个比例，她问我为什么和烧焦做朋友，我在一气之下说，因为她很像啊如。。。。。
可是，我一直很清楚不是那么一回事。啊如和烧焦根本是不同的人。
其实想和烧焦做朋友的理由很简单，因为我觉得她很有趣。
另外一点是，她和我们这一圈的朋友有共同的frequency ，而当她在我的身边的时候, 不需要隐藏自己。
原因就这么简单。
不不，应该是嘴贱之后才后悔。
我每次嘴巴动得比脑筋快， 常常说一些不该说的话。
就拿最近的争吵来做个比例，她问我为什么和烧焦做朋友，我在一气之下说，因为她很像啊如。。。。。
可是，我一直很清楚不是那么一回事。啊如和烧焦根本是不同的人。
其实想和烧焦做朋友的理由很简单，因为我觉得她很有趣。
另外一点是，她和我们这一圈的朋友有共同的frequency ，而当她在我的身边的时候, 不需要隐藏自己。
原因就这么简单。
4/10/2009 07:06:00 PM
♥ Check before you play .
Check before You play !
Mum is on leave today so she brought me out to walk . Originally we wanted to go shopping but people's park got nothing to shop . We went Partyworld KTV instead .
Mum is on leave today so she brought me out to walk . Originally we wanted to go shopping but people's park got nothing to shop . We went Partyworld KTV instead .
That is mother singing 七里香 . She is lost because she couldn't really catch the beat hence the silence.....
Now people can see the difference between my mother and i ...... LOL
Obviously my singing ability is not from her .
But it is great ! It has been a long time since i went out with her .
Ahh yes ! I forgot .
Please check the song's mtv before you select them . Especially when you are with your family !
I selected Maroon 5 's ,"This love" to sing , it turns out that the mtv has got a LOT of scenes whereby the vocalist are having too many "HOT" scenes with the girl in the mtv . There was this awkward silence in the room .....
Please check before selecting any songs to sing .
4/10/2009 01:00:00 AM
Monday, April 6, 2009
Pictures from SCC INCENDIA CONCERT ....
I sang three songs as you can see , i wore three different costumes . One of it was my song !
山歌
爱你的旋律
宅歌 ( My song )
I sang three songs as you can see , i wore three different costumes . One of it was my song !
山歌
爱你的旋律
宅歌 ( My song )
I look super ugly la in all the pictures ..... STUNN-SATION when i see the rate of my ugly factor in the concert pictures ...... I think i look better without make-ups and hairdo....
I learnt my lesson ....
* Note to myself : Please do not sing with your mouth open too widely ! It looks super UNglam .
4/06/2009 12:40:00 AM
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
I feel unwell now . The surroundings around me feels cold . I am having flu . My whole body feels weak . I guess i have slight fever.....
现在身体有点不适 。我觉得周围环境有点冷，整身无力。。。。。 我想应该是小小的发烧。。。。
现在身体有点不适 。我觉得周围环境有点冷，整身无力。。。。。 我想应该是小小的发烧。。。。
4/01/2009 12:46:00 AM
