Sunday, January 30, 2011
I want to believe that there is something good in everyone .
There is no point harping on the bad points .
Right ?
KK Don say anymore le ....
Ahhh The feeling of slacking in studio and staring at the ceiling is so shiok !
I dont feel like doing anything . Just stone . This is like quality time for yourself despite of busy schedule .
I want to watch movie ! But broke sia =(
There is no point harping on the bad points .
Right ?
KK Don say anymore le ....
Ahhh The feeling of slacking in studio and staring at the ceiling is so shiok !
I dont feel like doing anything . Just stone . This is like quality time for yourself despite of busy schedule .
I want to watch movie ! But broke sia =(
1/30/2011 02:30:00 AM
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Im tired of trying my best everyday .
I need a shoulder to lean on .
I need a listening ear .
I need someone to be there .
But its too difficult to find a suitable one .
Or does anyone even bother ?
I need a shoulder to lean on .
I need a listening ear .
I need someone to be there .
But its too difficult to find a suitable one .
Or does anyone even bother ?
1/29/2011 01:01:00 AM
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Can i just give up and walk away ?
Because im tired of everything .
Because im tired of everything .
1/27/2011 11:10:00 PM
Monday, January 24, 2011
I humiliated myself today =(
I fell in the bus with 2 loud thuds . Thats not the end . I didnt bring ezlink card . I had to ask people if they had $2 change . Everyone looked at me and told me no without even trying to look into their wallets . I felt helpless really . Until the 2 kind souls gave me $2 change .
I sat down and realized my left leg was bleeding . A patch of skin scrapped off . I started crying uncontrollably . Its not about malu , i fell so many times before . Im sad because no one was willing to help me , they just stared . Stared . Then looked away and pretend that nothing happened .
I had to force myself to smile and asked if they had change when i really felt terrible inside . None of them offered to help . WTF man . FML . Up till now i still feel terribly sad .
I wish that i dont exist today or can i just lose memory of today ? Its not worth remembering . It just make me depress.
I fell in the bus with 2 loud thuds . Thats not the end . I didnt bring ezlink card . I had to ask people if they had $2 change . Everyone looked at me and told me no without even trying to look into their wallets . I felt helpless really . Until the 2 kind souls gave me $2 change .
I sat down and realized my left leg was bleeding . A patch of skin scrapped off . I started crying uncontrollably . Its not about malu , i fell so many times before . Im sad because no one was willing to help me , they just stared . Stared . Then looked away and pretend that nothing happened .
I had to force myself to smile and asked if they had change when i really felt terrible inside . None of them offered to help . WTF man . FML . Up till now i still feel terribly sad .
I wish that i dont exist today or can i just lose memory of today ? Its not worth remembering . It just make me depress.
1/24/2011 08:16:00 PM
偶像真厉害 ! 她写简单的几首歌就能唱出此刻复杂的情绪。
Haixxxx :<
连翻唱都超有魅力的！
HOHHHH ! Saturday is just pure eventful . I went running with the maid . Went home with allergy or rashes that look like mosquito bites all over my body . Its like whole face , neck , ears ,my hands and tummy area all got the bites . Its swollen . My family still want to take me to hospital ! Lol ! Lucky it subsided ....Heheheh
Went to see a doc on Sunday morning , doc said that its just unknown allergy to something . Nothing serious .... I wonder what am i allergic to ?
1/24/2011 11:31:00 AM
Sunday, January 23, 2011
My auntie has went jakarta for work , im all alone in the dark room tonight . =(
I slack too much today didnt even read marketing or do its tutorial =(
What do u expect me to say when u are in a foul mood ? =(
Im sad =(
I slack too much today didnt even read marketing or do its tutorial =(
What do u expect me to say when u are in a foul mood ? =(
Im sad =(
1/23/2011 10:14:00 PM
Friday, January 21, 2011
There are times im still in denial .
Sometimes i wonder , have things changed ?
I cant convince myself .
Im always questioning myself .
Im always negative as usual .
As a result , i made myself sad .
Sometimes i wonder , have things changed ?
I cant convince myself .
Im always questioning myself .
Im always negative as usual .
As a result , i made myself sad .
1/21/2011 08:29:00 PM
Monday, January 17, 2011
I think she is really good ! Like phwoar .... I just stared at her videos .
1/17/2011 11:05:00 PM
Thursday, January 13, 2011
The pressure is seeping in again . Like raindrops seeping through the leaking roof .
Sighhh ...
I'm a dumb kid i guess .
I think i need koi as an antidote .
Sighhh ...
I'm a dumb kid i guess .
I think i need koi as an antidote .
1/13/2011 01:58:00 AM
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
T.T Exams sucks . It sucks even more to have both modules going on on the same day !
Things i need for New Year :
A pair of shoes
A big big brown leather bagpack
Grey colour faded jeans .
Hoodie ?
Thats all ...
Things i need for New Year :
A pair of shoes
A big big brown leather bagpack
Grey colour faded jeans .
Hoodie ?
Thats all ...
1/12/2011 01:26:00 AM
Monday, January 10, 2011
Its such a struggle to be a nice person really .
I can totally use sociology to explain this .
Imagine that you are in a room ,
There are like 2 person only . One party is called "I" , another is "me "
"I" will talk to "me" .
There will always have debate between "i" and "me" over what should Cheryl do , and how should she behave .
Should she do what she think she needs to do ? Or She should act according how others tells her to ?
Its really tough to be nice person because u are trying to live up to other's expectations and at the same time , you try not to let yourself down too .
I can totally use sociology to explain this .
Imagine that you are in a room ,
There are like 2 person only . One party is called "I" , another is "me "
"I" will talk to "me" .
There will always have debate between "i" and "me" over what should Cheryl do , and how should she behave .
Should she do what she think she needs to do ? Or She should act according how others tells her to ?
Its really tough to be nice person because u are trying to live up to other's expectations and at the same time , you try not to let yourself down too .
1/10/2011 12:59:00 AM
Monday, January 3, 2011
=(
As u can see , this is my mood until marketing test is over .
Instead of complaining all the time , i should stop procrastinating and start doing work .
But , WTH i left so much more .
Looking at the stack of notes , it demoralize me and unmotivates me to read them .
Sighhh..
I tried as hard as i could and gather all my energy to just to read them but nothing gets into my brain . Its like , "ok ok i memorize it liao" , the next moment , "ehhhh , this definition sounds familiar .... "
Sigghhh , i feel dumb really . Its like because im dumb thats why i have to work doubly hard . Even if i work doubly hard , other ppl who never study can still fare better than me . ( The most zek ark part )
im sad =(
But one thing is for sure , i did try to study , but its just not working well .
Sometimes i think i bother you too much , i should not bother you so often .
I feel guilty for like disturbing you all the time . I should like do things on my own .
As u can see , this is my mood until marketing test is over .
Instead of complaining all the time , i should stop procrastinating and start doing work .
But , WTH i left so much more .
Looking at the stack of notes , it demoralize me and unmotivates me to read them .
Sighhh..
I tried as hard as i could and gather all my energy to just to read them but nothing gets into my brain . Its like , "ok ok i memorize it liao" , the next moment , "ehhhh , this definition sounds familiar .... "
Sigghhh , i feel dumb really . Its like because im dumb thats why i have to work doubly hard . Even if i work doubly hard , other ppl who never study can still fare better than me . ( The most zek ark part )
im sad =(
But one thing is for sure , i did try to study , but its just not working well .
Sometimes i think i bother you too much , i should not bother you so often .
I feel guilty for like disturbing you all the time . I should like do things on my own .
1/03/2011 01:40:00 AM
