Monday, October 18, 2010
♥ Oh ya ~
Hahaha !
I had a serious discussion with Xueting and Py , i found out that im actually cold towards people .
Now that they said so , i think maybe its true .
I don't realise it .
This "coldness" had been with me for my whole 20 years , its like part of my character , i didnt realise that i had hurt them in a way or another .
Im not a "feeling" kind of person , i dont give hugs and say kind words to people when they are sad . I dont grow up in such an environment . But that doesnt mean that i dont care , its just that i dont express it the way other people do . Also , im afraid to say wrong things and make people even more emotional . I would feel guilty if such things happen . I would rather keep quiet and stay by their side . To me , i believe that by just staying by their side , is like really giving them moral support , rather than telling them kind words and knowing that some things wont go the way they want it to . Although kind words really sounds nice and keep the hopes up .
I dont go with the flow , i dont compromise with people , if i really really want to do something .
For example , if people want to eat Pizza , but i wanna eat popiah , i would rather leave the group and get popiah on my own .
Judging from the way i speak and the tone of it , i may sound fierce and unfriendly or even impatient . That is just my normal reaction . If i really hate someone , i wont even bother to talk to him or her .
Ahhh , i really dont know how to change myself .
I had a serious discussion with Xueting and Py , i found out that im actually cold towards people .
Now that they said so , i think maybe its true .
I don't realise it .
This "coldness" had been with me for my whole 20 years , its like part of my character , i didnt realise that i had hurt them in a way or another .
Im not a "feeling" kind of person , i dont give hugs and say kind words to people when they are sad . I dont grow up in such an environment . But that doesnt mean that i dont care , its just that i dont express it the way other people do . Also , im afraid to say wrong things and make people even more emotional . I would feel guilty if such things happen . I would rather keep quiet and stay by their side . To me , i believe that by just staying by their side , is like really giving them moral support , rather than telling them kind words and knowing that some things wont go the way they want it to . Although kind words really sounds nice and keep the hopes up .
I dont go with the flow , i dont compromise with people , if i really really want to do something .
For example , if people want to eat Pizza , but i wanna eat popiah , i would rather leave the group and get popiah on my own .
Judging from the way i speak and the tone of it , i may sound fierce and unfriendly or even impatient . That is just my normal reaction . If i really hate someone , i wont even bother to talk to him or her .
Ahhh , i really dont know how to change myself .
10/18/2010 12:26:00 AM
