Monday, November 15, 2010
♥ Last Hour Of Being a 19 Year Old ...
Its like 1 hour and 10 min more to 20 .
Its like im just a step away from adulthood .... 1 year more .
There is this fear in me .
Why cant we remain young and cheerful ? Why does humans have to age ? Why ?! WHY ?!
No , i don't wanna grow old . I wanna stay this way forever .
Because when i step into 21 , troubles and misery will come after me ....
Its like i will start worrying about future job ... I will start worrying about my family ? I will start wondering about my life and stuff like that .... Gradually , people whom are so close in your life currently will leave you soon . I will miss them .
I dont want that to happen ....
There are so many things that i wanna say but i cant express myself ....
Nvm ....
Being an upcoming 20 year old ....
I shall set some goals in this one year ....
Its like im just a step away from adulthood .... 1 year more .
There is this fear in me .
Why cant we remain young and cheerful ? Why does humans have to age ? Why ?! WHY ?!
No , i don't wanna grow old . I wanna stay this way forever .
Because when i step into 21 , troubles and misery will come after me ....
Its like i will start worrying about future job ... I will start worrying about my family ? I will start wondering about my life and stuff like that .... Gradually , people whom are so close in your life currently will leave you soon . I will miss them .
I dont want that to happen ....
There are so many things that i wanna say but i cant express myself ....
Nvm ....
Being an upcoming 20 year old ....
I shall set some goals in this one year ....
- Be a sensitive person ( Be more sensitive and listen to what ppl say )
- Be a hardworking girl ( Study study study !)
- Cherish what you have now
- 早点回家
- Read more books
- Dont be such a pessimist
- Dont doubt others
- Earn more $$$ ( To achieve some secret goal of mine )
- I wanna write some cute songs so that i can sing it to myself
- I wanna improve my vocals
- I wanna have unlimited wishes so that i can wish my whole life round .
AHHH .... This feeling is so confusing .... Is that the feeling of reluctance to grow up ?
It seems that i didnt set any goals in my life ... I mean MAJOR goals . It feels like im lost , no sense of direction ... This feeling of uncertainty sucks .
Maybe Max Weber is right about modern society ... We are stuck in the iron cage and have nowhere to escape . I think im in the state of anomie .... Im lost without goals . People always say by setting goals is like setting rules .... Goals is like a driving force so that you are more motivated to live your life , isnt it ? Im lost without it .
Im talking nonsense again =.=
11/15/2010 10:49:00 PM